I want words - to make you sweat...

I think you've read before that I would consider myself a word nerd. I really do love words and language. I'm not saying I'm the best at it or anything, but there's something in my brain that just hangs onto words. I had a friend who said the word "reciprocate" to me on the phone the other day. It's like the word was in my own mouth. Like I could roll it around and practically taste it. Like it's no longer a word but a tangible entity. For me, I would describe that word as round and wet and tart. Does that even make sense? Does anyone else experience that?

Anyways, on my way down to San Diego this weekend I was having a bit of trouble with my FM transmitter and started scavenging for CD's. I'm pretty much all digital so it was a gamble if I had any at all! What I came across was something I bought at a poetry/spoken word event I attended last year. I hadn't really listened to it and now I had silence in the car to soak it all in.

Listen to this and tell me it's not the sexiest thing you've ever heard. The words and his expression of the power of words, plain and simple, turns me on.

What are you reading?

An interesting subject was brought up on The Beehive about reading. My mom and I have always been AVID readers, but it seems in the last few years I don't know anyone who's reading anything. (I'm talking actual books here. Not blogs or online stuff or magazines which I read as well) I found this a little disheartening. However, hearing all these people's book choices was super cool!

I'm currently reading "Eating Animals" and I wonder if people rolls their eyes when I tell them that?

I did see one guy reading a book about George Washington and this was like the strangest thing ever. I totally judged him.  Ha Ha.

I never read romance novels or history topics so I began wondering what my mini book collection says about me. Here's some of my favorites that I keep in the nightstand next to my bed.  Sorta runs the gamut doesn't it?

I don't know what it means.

I think I want a divorce - No No, It's not you, it's me.

Yeah, I'm ready to file papers with you, Borders. I love you, but I'm just not IN love with you. Every time I visit I leave empty handed. You never have what I'm looking for.  I can never find a person to help me and usually have to use the self help computer, but it's not so helpful.

You are more conveniently located, I have coupons and your free rewards card, and I like the way your store is laid out, but I've found someone better.

Barnes & Noble just knows how to treat a lady. I go to the counter and they answer me immediately and even go get my books and bring them back to me. Thank you B&N as I am now a happy and satisfied customer and the excited owner of my new book, Eating Animals.

I can't wait to read this.

Wha? Where have I been?

I don't know. I've been busy! Here I set all these New Years resolutions which take a lot of time. Can you ever forgive me?

My mind has been working though. I have all these things I want to say, but they deserve more than half ass paragraphs.

#3 on my resolutions was to read 2 books.

I have my 2 books all picked out. I'm 1/2 way through the 1st one.  Change your thoughts, change your life - Living the wisdom of the Tao by Wayne Dyer. WOW I Love this book. Don't you remember me quoting the 29th Verse of the Tao every few months. Little known fact maybe...? I read that verse every day. EVERY DAY.

My 2nd book? I haven't bought it yet, but I'm so excited to renew my passion for healthy eating and compassionate eating. I've decided my next purchase will be Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer. Every person I encounter asks me WHY? I have this long complicated answer but secretly I roll the windows down when I drive past Famous Dave's. I may catch a morsel of bacon or pepperoni juice in a shared meal and I savor it. I dream about sleeping in and eating an entire bed of chicken strips and then I wake up and say WHY AM I DOING THIS? I'm wrapping up my 7th year of vegetarianism right now and I need to put some energy into this path I'm on and make sure it's still the right one for me.

Guess that's kinda heavy, right? Well, I told you I've been busy! I'll keep you posted :)

I'm still going to the gym, but I also like to not deny myself so here's a picture of me eating a toffee bar, a lemon bar, and a Mtn Dew for lunch last week. My stomach did hurt, but that's okay! Oh yeah, I texted this pic to my trainer too in case you were curious! Full disclosure!

O is for Obsession!

Hi everybody! I've been utterly boring and completely holed up in my own little world! Basically I've been trying to see how quickly I could deplete my iPhone battery. Oh wait, no, that's not what I've been trying to do! Truth is, I have an obsession!!!

If you love words like I do, me even telling you about it is almost cruel. Let me introduce you to....

TWISTY TEXT!

You get a 7 letter word and you just move them around to try and create as many words as you can! And all in 2 min 30 secondss. OMG it's addicting!! I could lose 3 hours like (SNAP) that!

So, I gotta go. My iPhone is calling to me! :)

What does this say about me?

It's a collection of my most commonly used words from my blog feed. HA!

You can get your own by clicking HERE!

www.dictionary.com

Right next to google, my favorite website is www.dictionary.com! I get SOO into words. I have this whole emotional reaction to reading, to listening to people talk - something almost sensual. The way they roll off your tongue. The delicate differences in meaning - the synonyms! You can read about my discovery of this and it’s relationship to men “HERE”

Actually, I’m not that smart and I would IN NO WAY classify myself as a writer. I have ZERO skills compared to the fellow bloggers I follow and I know and openly admit this. I’m probably just a really talkative person who led a sheltered childhood, spent my days and night reading, and grew up to be “a bit wordy”... But whatever!

One of my favorite books is The Feast of Love by Charles Baxter. I know there was a movie about it. Don’t even bother watching the movie. It’s horrible and lame, jumps around, and hardly builds the true depth of the characters, and skips all the details that make the story really stick... Please, just read the book. So I hop onto half.com to buy a copy for a friend who I think would enjoy it and wind up on amazon reading about the other books Charles Baxter has written - which I have not read and now want to.

One of the critiques used a word I had never heard before. I mean, it’s obvious what the root of the word is, but I was intrigued.

li⋅bid⋅i⋅nous
   /lɪˈbɪdnəs/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [li-bid-n-uhs]
–adjective
1.         full of sexual lust; lustful; lewd; lascivious.
2.         of, pertaining to, or characteristic of the libido.

WHAT A WORD!

How’d you like your definition to be “Lewd & Lascivious” ? Ha ha - that made me laugh out loud. Then I hop over to thesaurus.com because I feel like admitting to the world what a giant geek I am. I’m the lame kid that sits at home and memorizes the dictionary. OH GOD. Did I not just write “THIS” about also eating mayonnaise from the jar? And we all know that kid. Lord, save me now!

OK, back on track...

So thesaurus.com says this:

Main Entry:         libidinous
Part of Speech:         adjective
Definition:         lustful
Synonyms:         carnal, coarse, concupiscent, debauched, fast, hot*, impure, incontinent, lascivious, lecherous, libertine, loose*, obscene, passionate, prurient, salacious, satyric, sensual, unchaste, wanton, wicked

My favorite of those is SALACIOUS... I just want to say that word all the time. It’s a slippery word... actually, almost chewy... Does that make any sense?

So back to dictionary.com

sa⋅la⋅cious
   /səˈleɪʃəs/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [suh-ley-shuhs] Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective
1.         lustful or lecherous.

Now I’m thinking LECHEROUS... These words are gathering a more and more negative connotation, but I’m loving saying them to myself.

So that was my 10 minute break at work. You didn’t think I could take a sensual love of words and a pretty darn raunchy sexual word and turn it into a window into Nerd-dom did you? HA HA

Turn Ons...

I’m always fascinated by nuance... and the differences that make each of us who we are. Ok, that’s not really what I was going to write about, I think this blog is going to go a couple different places.

One thing I was thinking about is the type of men that I draw to me. I think any of you that know my history know that there is absolutely NO similarities between the major relationships in my life. From black to white, tall to short, skinny to muscular, creative to by the book, realists to dreamers - I magically managed to find exact opposites. And the joke is, that besides being indeed male, they are all polar opposites. (I would assume most people would only consider there to be 2 opposites of any given thing, so maybe it’s more like a triangle or something... I don’t know!)

ANYWAYS... I figured out the similarity!!! Besides a wicked sense of sarcasm and humor, they were all brilliant! IQ’s off the charts (each in their own way very intimidating to me...) From one who wanted to sit at home and fiddle with magnets and build and create things and read Mensa books just for time killing fun, to another who had mastery over the computer in a methodical calculating mathematical programming way that would really bend your brain (and I use computers okay people? THIS shit was above complicated) to another one who totally gets off on light and space and time and geography and the universe, to math and fact and figures... They were all mentally sharp, voracious readers, eloquent, well spoken men. WOW!

Know what’s odd? They all had what I would consider to be almost identical handwriting! LOL (Strange fact, I know - had to share)

So why am I writing this blog? Because I discovered something about myself that my roommates are now making fun of me for. Know what turns me on? A man that reads. A man that can spell! A man that didn’t have to dictionary.com the word voracious I used 2 paragraphs up... A man that WRITES! I find myself having a quite magical experience when I read a properly formed sentence. I get off on proper punctuation! Paragraphs! Capitalization! (Now this isn’t so that you can re-read all of my writings for typo’s and misspellings and probably a few too many exclamation points and ...dot dot dots... but I do write like I talk - HEY wait a minute - this isn’t about me okay!?)

So, how lame do you think I am now?

HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN AN EMAIL IN ALL CAPITALS THAT JUST MAKES YOU WANT TO PULL YOUR HAIR OUT!? or what about the guy who just says yo wassup mama do you wanna go come see myb crib laters in his ghetto slang where you have to try and figure out what the hell he is even talking about or the one who just keeps writing and writing and writing and never spaces or stops or hits the return key ever and doesn’t use a period to break up the sentences and never spell checks and you throw up a little in your mouth imagining what it must be like to talk to this guy in person once let alone for the rest of your life

YEAH, THAT IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT! I can’t handle it!

So anyways, I had to share! I took quite the ribbing a couple days ago from Melt and Beck about how abnormal this new discovery is. I don’t care what you all say though - it’s my fetish and I like it!