Are you really crazy?
Ever heard the question... do crazy people know they are crazy? I think I make perfect sense, but everyone I come in contact with still tells me I’m plain insane. I kinda like that name. Like instead of “She’s just a plain Jane.” they can say “She’s just plain insane.” Ha! See what I mean? I think I am crazy...
I don’t know how to explain the craziness in my head. The constant conversations. They dart and race around. Anyways, it doesn’t really matter. Even if I could figure it out, there would be no way to explain it to you.
I have a disconnect somewhere though. I feel like I’m in the eye of a tornado. or a black hole. or somewhere where time stands still and there isn’t much sound but that you can see the chaos just around the corner. It’s a strange place to be. I feel like I’m not really living though. Like I’m just going through the motions. I smile, I go to work, I go to yoga, I cook dinner... but it’s not real. I’m not doing a good job of explaining this am I?
Ok, know what it’s like? It’s like walking, but realizing you are walking at the bottom of the deep end in the pool. That’s not really walking is it? The muffled sounds. Can’t really see clearly. Certainly can’t catch your breath and it takes twice the effort to trudge thru. You can do the motion of walking but it’s in some weird buoyant slow motion. That’s what life is like right now. UGH... Needless to say I don’t like it!
Have you ever had a conversation that was so draining, you don’t think you’ll ever feel like talking again? Well, I just did. I’m still processing it. I can respect the sincerity, the honesty, and most certainly the intent - but somehow (at this exact second) I wonder if it can be true when I also know what you were doing just 8 hours before.
Bought 2 new CD’s yesterday. Check out these most awesome lyrics:
CHRISETTE MICHELE LYRICS
"Be Ok"
(feat. Will.I.Am)
Imma take my lexus to the mall
Get a little black dress just because
Me and my boo just broke it off
Imma be fly although hes gone
And i dont really care bout who he's with
Imma get mine and he'll get his
Even though i was in love with him,
I really hope the best for them
Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away
Imma keep my head up, hold it high
Really did my best i know you tried
Even though it hurts i will survive
I'll wipe my eyes, i'll stay alive
Take a deep breath and count to 10
Today's a new day i'll start again,
Imma find myself so deep within
Imma survivor i will win
Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away
I don’t know how to explain the craziness in my head. The constant conversations. They dart and race around. Anyways, it doesn’t really matter. Even if I could figure it out, there would be no way to explain it to you.
I have a disconnect somewhere though. I feel like I’m in the eye of a tornado. or a black hole. or somewhere where time stands still and there isn’t much sound but that you can see the chaos just around the corner. It’s a strange place to be. I feel like I’m not really living though. Like I’m just going through the motions. I smile, I go to work, I go to yoga, I cook dinner... but it’s not real. I’m not doing a good job of explaining this am I?
Ok, know what it’s like? It’s like walking, but realizing you are walking at the bottom of the deep end in the pool. That’s not really walking is it? The muffled sounds. Can’t really see clearly. Certainly can’t catch your breath and it takes twice the effort to trudge thru. You can do the motion of walking but it’s in some weird buoyant slow motion. That’s what life is like right now. UGH... Needless to say I don’t like it!
Have you ever had a conversation that was so draining, you don’t think you’ll ever feel like talking again? Well, I just did. I’m still processing it. I can respect the sincerity, the honesty, and most certainly the intent - but somehow (at this exact second) I wonder if it can be true when I also know what you were doing just 8 hours before.
Bought 2 new CD’s yesterday. Check out these most awesome lyrics:
CHRISETTE MICHELE LYRICS
"Be Ok"
(feat. Will.I.Am)
Imma take my lexus to the mall
Get a little black dress just because
Me and my boo just broke it off
Imma be fly although hes gone
And i dont really care bout who he's with
Imma get mine and he'll get his
Even though i was in love with him,
I really hope the best for them
Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away
Imma keep my head up, hold it high
Really did my best i know you tried
Even though it hurts i will survive
I'll wipe my eyes, i'll stay alive
Take a deep breath and count to 10
Today's a new day i'll start again,
Imma find myself so deep within
Imma survivor i will win
Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away
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