Fancy Foreign Cars - Zoom Zoom she does NOT!

Here in the RV world, when we sell something, we do an “orientation” with our customers to show them how to use all the many many gadgets they come with. Heck, some of them have remote controls that cost $600 and run everything from your TV and DVD player to turn on your lights, or run your shades up and down. That would require some instruction for me too.

But a car? Shouldn’t those be pretty straight forward? I have a relatively inexpensive foreign car - a stock car (No fancy upgraded GPS or stereo or anything) yet, every day that I have her (And I’m going on 4 years now) I learn something new. Today I was given a FOUR PAGE print out on the proper way just to turn my car on and off!

After a $72.45 tow bill to take it to the dealership, I learned just how particular she is. Would a woman be less any complicated? Seems almost unnatural - HA!

Turns out that because of the fuel injection and the finely tuned oil burning rotary engine, she floods easily. In fact, when you start her, you have to leave her running long enough to burn the fuel out of the engine (Or at least until the temperature gauge is on the 2nd - 3rd bar) Then before you turn it off, you have to put it in park, hold the brake, rev the engine to 6,000 RPM’s and while holding the gas turn the key off so that the engine will quickly burn off the last bit of fuel running thru.

Otherwise, when your poor unsuspecting roommates move your car out of the driveway so they can go to work and park her back in the garage, she will not be starting again...

OOPS, you live you learn. HA!

So disturbing...

So a couple weeks ago, I went on an outing to the Home and Garden show. We had some decent food, saw some cool home goods, and even ate a cinnamon roll! YUMM!

Although, at the end of our journey, I seemed to have stumbled upon what I am going to classify as the most disturbing thing I’ve looked at in 2008. And I have total trainwreckitus... I watch every crappy show, look at every extreme thing that comes my way via the internet, and certainly can’t look away when it’s in person. This is, to me, almost worse than when Karen discovered the secret society of women who sniff mens underwear... And those pictures were well done, but Gross...

However, now that I’ve built this up, you guys are going to think I’m plain retarded, but that’s ok. IN MY WORLD, this is disturbing - Feast your eyes on the below pictures!

http://i244.photobucket.com/albums/gg11/oneheavenlyheart/IMG_0526.jpg

http://i244.photobucket.com/albums/gg11/oneheavenlyheart/IMG_0527.jpg

Being the vegetarian that I am, I have never been so horrified as to see a BBQ shaped like animal that you will be killing, cooking, and eating. Am I the only one that sees the horror in this? I don’t even know how to explain what this is like, but it’s bad folks! It’s bad!

GO VEG!

Previously unpublished from 3/8/2007

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Seems I haven’t make any progress at all... sigh...
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Gosh, isn’t it funny how things kinda compact down on you? My life is great and slowly getting better, yet at the same time I feel like I’ve stretched myself a bit too thin these last couple of months. Besides an outrageous amount of time spent at work, I’m traveling the country, volunteering for the “Make-a-Wish”, I’m working on my own personal betterment with counseling, I’m doing 4-5 nights a week of exercise at my yoga studio, and my “SCHEDULE” has become a bit tight. But what do I give up?

I just don’t know what to do. Giving up even 1 thing makes me distraught. I WANT so much. I want to experience every possible thing in this life. I also want to be perfect. I feel that if I keep cranking things up a notch I’ll be smarter and funnier and more capable and more fit and make more money and somehow it just doesn’t work that way. I want to plant a garden, I want to cook, I want to shop, I want to take my dog to the park, I want to sit at home and paint my nails, I want to read a book, I want to SLEEP!! I want to DO too much.

And this all happens to me long before I consider wanting to have friends, or a boyfriend, or any sort of relationship. Now I find myself torn between all these options. It’s been recently mentioned that my life is like a scheduled chaos. I suppose so.

TRUST ME, I WANT TO DO whatever it is that you are suggesting. It just takes a great deal of mental energy to come to a feasible way I can make that happen AND still get done what I want and NEED to accomplish.

Are you really crazy?

Ever heard the question... do crazy people know they are crazy? I think I make perfect sense, but everyone I come in contact with still tells me I’m plain insane. I kinda like that name. Like instead of “She’s just a plain Jane.” they can say “She’s just plain insane.” Ha! See what I mean? I think I am crazy...

I don’t know how to explain the craziness in my head. The constant conversations. They dart and race around. Anyways, it doesn’t really matter. Even if I could figure it out, there would be no way to explain it to you.

I have a disconnect somewhere though. I feel like I’m in the eye of a tornado. or a black hole. or somewhere where time stands still and there isn’t much sound but that you can see the chaos just around the corner. It’s a strange place to be. I feel like I’m not really living though. Like I’m just going through the motions. I smile, I go to work, I go to yoga, I cook dinner... but it’s not real. I’m not doing a good job of explaining this am I?

Ok, know what it’s like? It’s like walking, but realizing you are walking at the bottom of the deep end in the pool. That’s not really walking is it? The muffled sounds. Can’t really see clearly. Certainly can’t catch your breath and it takes twice the effort to trudge thru. You can do the motion of walking but it’s in some weird buoyant slow motion. That’s what life is like right now. UGH... Needless to say I don’t like it!

Have you ever had a conversation that was so draining, you don’t think you’ll ever feel like talking again? Well, I just did. I’m still processing it. I can respect the sincerity, the honesty, and most certainly the intent - but somehow (at this exact second) I wonder if it can be true when I also know what you were doing just 8 hours before.

Bought 2 new CD’s yesterday. Check out these most awesome lyrics:

CHRISETTE MICHELE LYRICS

"Be Ok"
(feat. Will.I.Am)

Imma take my lexus to the mall
Get a little black dress just because
Me and my boo just broke it off
Imma be fly although hes gone
And i dont really care bout who he's with
Imma get mine and he'll get his
Even though i was in love with him,
I really hope the best for them

Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind

Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away

Imma keep my head up, hold it high
Really did my best i know you tried
Even though it hurts i will survive
I'll wipe my eyes, i'll stay alive
Take a deep breath and count to 10
Today's a new day i'll start again,
Imma find myself so deep within
Imma survivor i will win

Every sentimental and my crying sacrimental
Tell me what i cant get into
I cant lose my mind
Think its time for me to let go
Cause my heart cant take it no more
You were all i lived for but i'll leave you behind

Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on, baby walk away