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Actually I wanted to just write another personal truth. I really do like music. And as cliche and obvious as it is, I’m all about leaving obvious clues for people as to where I am in life. I don’t think anyone ever picks up on all those clues, lol, but I do it either way.

One thing I do is put music that tells my current story on my MySpace. Yeah, I know - LAME - I know. (Please ignore that time I put the new song Swing by Savage on there... I’m not really considering being a stripper whore or a rappers girlfriend... that one was just catchy...)

So, read the lyrics to these songs and see if you can figure out where I am in life. I fear they paint a tragic story. LOL I’m gonna be ok, I swear, but these songs I’m “feeling”... (Hey that’s better than being dead inside, right?)

I’ll start you off with one. This is my new fav song...
1) Car Crash - Courtney Love

There's a ghost on the highway,
And I want to run it down,
There's a phantom in my bed,
And I'm all alone now.
I've seen every hotel,
I've seen every hell,
There's nothing I haven't done,
There's no one I haven't had.

Would you be there when the lights,
When the lights get shot right out?
Would you be there when the roof,
When the roof comes crumbling down?

And I know myself too well,
And the Devil speaks to me,
And he's got me pinned down now,
Telling me I'm so empty.
Oh, just say you're sorry now,
And you'll never do it again,
Take the edge right off and keep it,
Coz you'll never be high again.

Would you be there when the lights,
When the lights get shot right out?
Would you be there when the roof,
When the roof comes crashing down?

Would you be there when the devil,
When the devil comes for me?
Would you be there when the lights,
Go black and empty?

And I live in a box,
And I die in this hole.
And you hold the keys,
To this zip.
And I don't wanna go,
But I can't seem to come,
And it's not up to me,
It's up to you.

And at all tomorrows parties,
I will be there, not at one,
And when you all start to miss me,
Oh, just pass me the gun.
And it's Valentine's again,
And there's nothing here for me.

Would you be there when the lights,
When the lights come crashing down?
Would you be there when the roof,
When the roof comes crumbling down?

Would you be there when the Devil,
Takes me to the underground?
Would you be there when the night,
Is night all year around?

Would you be there in the ice?
In the frost and cold and freeze?
Would you be there any time?
When I'm here, I'm on my knees?

2) Hiding - Beth Hart
3) Kill My Soul - Catherine Wheel
4) Lie To Me - Depeche Mode
5) Danger - Keep Away - Slipknot

Couldn’t resist - this one is just too good. Here’s another:
6) The Same Old Song - Nina Personn (A Camp)

Here's my prayer
I'm getting nowhere
I'm stepping up the stairs
But falling behind, oh
I'm a one-man show
That nobody knows
My body sure knows
I'm wondering why, oh

I can't go on singing this song
That the angels will not hear
The world is a hole from all that I stole
But there is still a little love in here
Few things will last, I did it too fast
But I'm learning to cry

Don't be a stepping stone
Get it all out, deliver it

Here's my weep
I'm digging too deep
I do believe in lies
I've got everything to hide, oh
I'm young, I'm old
I do what I'm told
Cut open, unfold
But there's nothing inside, oh

Hey child, you dance too loud
Here is your limit

Don't be a stepping stone
Get it all out, deliver it

Here's my plead
My never ending repeat
I'm a circular cry-baby
With no one to trust
I'm restless and mad
And anciently sad
If someone wants to kill me
Go ahead but make it fast

7) Lost and Found - Ledisi